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[30 Sep 2006|10:56pm] |
After one year, 16 days, I still love BRANDON. Now that he's away at college it is really hard emotionally for me. I am used to seeing him everyday and once a week just doesnt satisfy me. I need him to talk to, to share my day with, and even to share my dinner with. :) He is my world. Yesterday he came down... across...SLO... to visit. (I went lst weekend). We hung out for a while, or atleast until his allergies became too much for him (he's allergic to cats). Then today we went to his old elementary school and had, well you know, on the baseball field. It was fun. My weeks go by so fast now. Its like I'm working for that weekend, those few freedom days, just so I can see him. I work nine hour days then go to school for another four and go to sleep, wake up, and do it all over again. I think that is the only way I am able to cope with the withdraw of brandon. Today I finished my chores/ work but noon but I didnt see him until four. I felt like I had nothing to do, and like I was completely empty. I usually have things to do but today found myself a complete mess. I didnt know what I should do. Watch TV? Eat? Take a shower? In all I just laid around hoping to fall asleep to pass the time. Well I have a lot more to write but to motivation to do so.
So goodnight and goodday
aquilla
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[23 May 2006|06:33pm] |
So I talked to Brandon yesterday. I had to block my number just so he would answer. We talked and everything and we seemed okay. I talked to him at work but he did not say much. After that he didnt bother saying a word. He didnt even help clean the cafe. whatever. I guess we will eventually talk when he feels like it. I am waiting for tracy to get home for work. We are suppose to go to the gym. I guess her mom is jealous because tracy doesnt talk to her much, like she did before. So now she wants me to pay rent which is retarded because its not like I use her stuff. I dont even eat her food. So tracy and I are looking for apartments now. Anyone know anywhere good? and cheap? Well later.
<3 Aquilla
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[22 May 2006|09:57pm] |
so it has been a while. Brandon and I were doing so good but today it all turned around. I cant stand him at work. He frustrates me. I dont know when he decided he was coach but I had to end it. I love soccer and I am the soccer coach at planz. But for some reason, probably because he is a guy, he thinks he is better than me. It happens all the time. I try to let it go but I guess it does not always work. So I told him that he can no longer come out to the practices and he thought I was joking. hahah I'm not. I told Sara that I didnt want him out there anymore. I guess that was mean but we always get into fights at work about soccer practice so I needed to end it. But then he tells fawn that I am no longer the coach and that I will be in the class room with her. Isn't that the same thing he did to me (he told me about the fawn thing before I told him the sara thing) so our intentions were the same. He had his fucking softball team so why cant he let me enjoy the soccer team? Then he told me that was the bitchiest thing I have ever done and that he hopes I dont plan on talking to him in a really longer time. So I guess we are done. Over fucking soccer. Just like our fucking fights. HOW FUCKING STUPID!!!! So I was sad I admit but now I have motivation to go to the gym... the motivation... I'm pissed! So I guess it helps to be sad and mad. I still love him though. Maybe things will eventually work out. Well I guess thats it.
love, Aquilla
p.s. I worked out really hard today and my tummy hurts.
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[23 Feb 2006|09:44pm] |
p.s.
I failed a stupid test in Stats which is wierd
because I always do my homework and I studied
for two days. I think the questions where
all twisted or something. I hate the way
I type. Its not very... intelligent.
whatever. I'll get over it.
I missed school today because I lost my
voice. It was cool. I had to drink lemon tea
to get my voice back. I have picked my dress for
Prom. Its a lot of $$$$ but i really like it so...
I wanna call brandon really bad but he is writing a
term paper. Lame! This weekend I plan on flying kites.
I also need a hair cut but I am broke. I still owe my
mom 700 but atleast its not as much as before. So... lets
see... what have i done since I last got on livejournal.
-Valentines Day!
brandon cooked me dinner and it was beautiful. I thought it
would be a little corny but it wasnt. He made me chicken,
my favorite!
I signed up for a softball team. My practices are sundays
and my games are on mondays. I need my dad to go buy me
a mit. I also need face scrub. I dont have a pimply face
but It is a little oily around my chin because I talk on
my phone way too much. i have recently hung out with tracy.
it was fun. I spent the night. Audrey is going quading with
some co-workers on Sat. in Pismo. I'm a little jelly.
But is okay cuz I would rather stay here with brandon.
I always wonder how long him and I will be together.
and its wierd because I'm not tired, bored, or annoyed by
him. I usually would be by now. it seems like anytime I try
to type about something he always comes up. Jeeze!
Whatever. I know its cuz I love him.
So my tummy really hurts and its almost 10 and I am extremely
tired so good night.
love,
Aquilla
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[23 Feb 2006|09:19pm] |
So We are very happy together.
I dont think I could ever possibly find a better guy.
As my mom and her friend (mindi) say..." Brandon reaks of class"
Everyday I love him more if that is even possible.
I can actually say that I love him and thats rare because I have
only loved two people (him included).
So enough about thim...
Work is great. Sara and I are really bonding. She even takes me to
meetings no one else but the "high" people get to attend.
She even made me an ELF. (elite leader of the future) which is cool
because I can become a lead tutor next year.
I have also acquired a first grade class. I love it. I dont get to be in the
class until after Dr. Seuss Day but I have already made my lesson
plans. Tomorrow is movie night but I cant attend...:(
I am going to the Korn show instead. I have a VIP pass so I am going to
take Megan backstage with me. I know she'll love it. I saw their rehearsal
show last night and it ws pretty good (I'm not being modest). I really want
to see Mudvayne for some reason. I dont like them much but whatever.
Well I guess that is all for now.
later.
aquilla
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[26 Jan 2006|03:52pm] |
life... great....
brandon... great...
jamie is getting married in october. I am really excited.
I am helping her move this weekend.
Went to her house yesterday. She has a funny haircut... she tried to cut her own bangs.. :)
so my month is going great. hardly any problems. I get kinda bored all the time... well except when I am with brandon. I miss going out and I miss tracy a lot. I am going to hang out with her this weekend. its gonna be great.
I dont go out much anymore. I just wanna be around brandon. no one else matters. its weird. I dont really even care about any of my other friends anymore ( except jamie and tracy). I stay away from other peoples problems andstupid ass gossip. I guess its better this way. This way no one will get made at me for talking.
Well I gotta type an essay cuz I have be going to school everyday for once! horray.
<3 Aquilla
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[29 Dec 2005|10:25pm] |
I dont think I have ever be so board in my life.
This was my break:
Went to Brandon's Grandparents house for X-mas eve.
Brandon and I played Super Nintendo and reg. Nintendo. It was fun.
He got me this realy pretty Diamond Necklace.
I got him this really Awesome Ben Sherman Shirt.
Went to tracy's afterwards. Danced with Jay Jay and drank.
Went to Mindi's For X-mas with my parents and Brandon.
I had a lot of fun.
Went to tracy's sisterthe other day. Watched Pink Floyd THE WALL.
Today: Went to play tennis with Brandon and Tabitha.
Got mad at Brandon for cusing at me.
Avoiding his calls. Three total.
I might call him later. Not sure yet.
Bye
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[22 Dec 2005|01:57pm] |
my boyfriend is pretty.
ask tracy
I finally found someone who is really smart.
It sucks though. He will be leaving me to go to Cal Poly.
I will stay here. I will stay with my bad habits of smoking and drinking.
I will go to Csub and do nothing with my life.
My mom is being a bitch. she grounded me and my sisters from seeing our boyfriends or a month.
thats stupid. I think it is because she sees that we are happy and cant stand it. So she has to ruin it.
who the fuck does that?
well later guys.
I still havent gotten anything for brandon. Someone give me an idea.
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[14 Dec 2005|04:19pm] |
so i havent updated in a very long time. I really dont feel like telling everyone my business or taking the time to even bother to type it out but... here I go.
So to start
Vanessa and I do not hang out anymore. Its not just that fact she's a crack whore but she made me leave tracy in a very bad situation. It is my fault. Yeah, I will take the blame but they idea was but into my head by her.
Tracy and I are very good friends again. I am going to be living with her soon. We have had so much fun together. I guess one morning I woke up and had this aphany (or however you spell it). I just couldn't stand not being around her and she was going through very hard times with erik. But thats over now. :) So far we have gone out of town three times. Twice to San Luis to see Adrian and once to HOLLYWOOD to see the ear;y november, senses fail, and Saves The Day!! We are to go see Saosin in San Diego on the 31st. It should be fun.
Brandon and I are doing wonderful. I dont think I have ever been so happy with being with some. I cant stand not be around him and I have to talk to him all the time. We are always having fun. Playing games, play fighting, and just fooling around. Its great. 3 months and going strong. We are to have twins soon or atleast thats what some asian bitch thinks. Yippie... I am going to stockdale's prom with him!
Weekend plans:
alyson's wedding (i have to go with Brandon to find something)
plans with tracy (yes)
maybe a party
clean house
well works great and you are great so I will leave you now.
bye,
Aquilla
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[14 Dec 2005|04:04pm] |
What's a Myspace Whore?
Pretty funny you ask, its one who uses Myspace more than normally needed. (The normal, non-homosexual amount of time you should spend on myspace is 5 seconds or less. Spending more time than that will make you homosexual.) These people have dedicated their lives to Myspace, which is a pretty emo thing to do. Show some lulz at them for wasting their life. :)
The Whore's Profile A myspace Whore's profile will consist of every goddamned annoyance known to any Myspace user. Right away your computer should freeze. If you ever do happen to survive the load, notice how many "friends" they have befriended on Myspace. You should already know that .003% of the users on their friend list have met the whore in person. The profile will be laden with shameless self-promotion, making you hate this person more. Also notice the pictures this user has taken of him/herself. It usually contains that infamous bathroom emo faggotness of taking a picture of yourself in the bathroom mirror. Most likely this person is emo. There is never an emo who doesn't use Myspace.
Holy shit, why do they use this damned site so much?? Because it is most likely they are the ghey and love the cock. They lack lulz, and use this to make friends in real life. Online, he/she may think they are the Myspace Queen because of all the comments and fake friends they get. Just Queen, there is never a Myspace King.
What happens when you befriend these imps? Get them off your friends list IMMEDIATELY. Sooner or later (or once you accept the friend request) they will make you kiss the bulletin system bye bye with their constant sex pleads for comments. Myspace whores need comments to live and breathe, so as said above, just don't comment. Or, for kicks and giggles, you can take sexual plesure into sending 100's of racist hateful messages toward them. You'll piss yourself in glee if this user enables HTML in their comments. You can give them the 50 hitler post (nah, make it more than fifty, and make sure them pics of Hitler are bigger than your computer screen's resolution.) They have opened their legs for pure pwnage if they enabled HTML in their comments. Find any rape comment you can google, or use these awesome Macromedia
I got this from some dictionary site about myspace
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[12 Aug 2005|11:50pm] |
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I will just list everything that happened this week because it takes a long time to do this on my phone. So first lynn passes. That was really had on me. Then out of on where andrew calls me and takes me to work. We got to talk a lot and it was fun. I have missed him so much. I wish i would have choose him over nick. Ha ha. Then i got a new friend. Her name is vanessa. She is really fucking cool. Then i found out that jamie house burned down.
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[06 Aug 2005|12:28am] |
my phone rings at 11:30 this morning.
i look at the phone... Jennifer...maybe she wants to hangout?
i say hello...
..."did you here yet?"
..."about what?"
..."about lynn"
..."what about her?"
..."she died last night"..
my day turned to shit.
i never thought she would even up dead...
i thought she would recover from the surgery and come back to school.
i know she had been out of school for over 6 months...
she would have to repeat the year but hey she was smart... she'd get through it...
then we could celebrate our b-day. (we have the same b-day)
but all that is gone now.
just when you think some one is getting better, just when everything looks so good...
they dissapear...
i am going to miss her so much...
if only...
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[28 Jun 2005|10:20pm] |
my mom is letting me go places now.
its kinda cool.
so you guys should definately call me to hang out.
I am going to warped tour on the 4th!
Andy Towe is coming along.
So far so good between Jeff and I.
He makes me mad, sometimes.
Found out Andrew Sutton is back from Seattle.
We had a thing after Nick and I dated.
Found out he has a fiance and a baby coming.
I am very happy for him.
It was kind of a shock but people mature and change and have to live their lives.
It seems like everyone is having a kid.
Well, not every one.
But Dwayne and Andrew both in the same year?
WIERD!
Well I would love to chat more but I must get going.
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